I posted about our move back to Barbados from the Turks and Caicos.  In my post I explained I had no “why” for the move beyond a feeling.  It turned out this move was way more difficult than I could have imagined.

A sign of hope

During this season of transition I’ve had some dark days.  My spirit was really lifted on a recent walk with my dogs.  Look what was waiting for me on my dog walk the other night, a Rainbow. I love the rainbow. Do you know the story of Noah and the Ark?  It’s a story and a sign of hope and mercy. I really needed that sign!

A few days ago a friend asked me “where are you these days?”. It was a good question. Afterall I’ve moved country 5 times in the past 15 years.  Her question really provoked my thinking.  Not just to respond in terms of where I was  geographically, but in broader terms. Moving house, country, or any other transition doesn’t just change our circumstances. Transition impacts us mentally and emotionally. So I thought I’d share where I am now with you.

Where I am now

The past 3 years have been hectic. We lived in Montserrat for two years. Then in Turks and Caicos Islands for one year.  Then we returned to Barbados. It’s nearly a year since we’ve been back. We’ve re-connected with friends and family and now have 2 new additions to our family. Max and Micah, that makes 5 dogs!

Aside from the moving country I’ve been transitioning the focus of my business.  My other significant life transition was hitting menopause. I’m going to be 49 in September but it still took me by surprise.  I thought I was peace about not having a baby. However, menopause was a complete closure on my dream of a natural pregnancy. It really took a lot to process that. A story for another time.

In all this I’ve had to hold onto my faith. Believe that there’s hope on the other side of these circumstances, and, that I can and will transition well.  I learned that transitioning well is not always about making the transition easier. It does mean leaning into the transition.

It means being hopeful by believing and truly knowing you won’t always be stuck in the middle. Remaining hopeful because:

Transition means you may not be where you want to be but you are not who you were, nor are you where you began.  It is not who you are now that you must focus on, but who you are becoming, and where you are going.

I’ve turned a corner now. Not simply because circumstances have changed but because I surrendered. I said “Yes” to where my Creator allowed me to be in this season. I decided to trust Abba Father and stop ‘second guessing’ Him. I decided to trust myself and stop asking: “Did I make the right decision?” “Did I get it wrong”.

It was not easy to trust. Over time as I surrendered contentment began to grow. There is great freedom in surrendering; Following our Creator’s unforced rhythm and tide. I discovered He is not on a time scale. He is not concerned with trying to ‘achieve’ something.  I learnt that as I rested things began to take shape. Even the things I’d been dreaming of for some time. 

Contentment is surrender’s sweet spot

So whatever transition I am in I have “learned to be content whatever the circumstances”. As you start the week may you find contentment no matter your circumstances!